Thankful

Why do we hurt the people we love the most, the most?
That has been on my mind a lot lately..
There is one person in this world that can make me happy, make me smile, make me cry and drive me crazy all in one day and I still love him more than anything. Mostly it is, me driving him crazy. He takes care of me.

He provides for me when he shouldn't. He is the funniest person I know. He knows me better than anyone in the world. And I love that.

He is the greatest person and I don’t deserve him.

He will never be able to understand how much I love him. Even if he could slightly even get a glimpse of how deep my love is for him, he still wouldn’t understand. I have made many mistakes and time and time again he forgives me and sometimes I wonder why. Why me? What do I do that makes him love me as much as I love him? Why me, forever? He could have any girl and pass me up, but after almost 3 years, he still has faith in us. But why?

It’s like staring at the moon and staring really hard and still not being able to comprehend what it looks like and how big it is.

That’s how much I love him.

It’s like being in the middle of the ocean and as far as you can see is just water and still not being able to comprehend how big the ocean is. You just can’t no matter how hard you try.
I feel like my blogs are best when I am the most emotional.. When I have to stop typing to wipe the tears off of my face, I realize how deeply in love with him I am.

That’s how it is,
and I still can’t comprehend it.

NEW NEW NEW!

Yay!!! New designs!!

I've been working hard the past two weeks to

get these finished so that I could get some orders

and I only have a few orders as of right now but

hopefully you will all like some of these designs!

I can do any size, color or pattern shown here plus

a few more so just let me know if you're interested! :)

kaylakennamer@yahoo.com or 256-647-8413

12 in. X 9 in. $15

Roll Tide!

11 in. X 14 in. $15

Letters with ribbon $8

16 in. X 20 in. $20

11 in. X 14 in. $15

I made this one for my friend who goes

to Auburn! Even though I am an Alabama

fan, I really liked this and she did too! :)

11 in. X 14 in. Canvas $15

Scrapbook letters with ribbon $8

Happy Friday!

After a long work week, all I wanted to do was crawl

on the couch with a movie and a bowl of ice cream.

And I did.

Anyways, I found out this cool new way of seeing

exactly who looks at my blog. If the person doesn't have

a blogger account and just views my blog, I can

see from what city and state they're in.

And let me tell you,

I was shocked!

I am so So SO grateful for everyone viewing and

reading, you have no idea! I am so glad that

people are interested in reading what I have to tell the world! People are reading This Is My Now from Opelika, Alabama all the way to Charlotte, North Carolina!! Even if only once,

THANK YOU!!

Also, I have some new pieces to add to my art collection

and I am going to share them with you soon so please

stop by again soon! You might want one of

them for your house! :) Thank you!

"Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord." Psalm 31:24

A Word to the Wise

Life is not about the number of friends you have on Facebook,

the amount of money you have in your closet, or the way

you try to act cool.

It's about falling in love, humility, being nice to everyone,

having opinions but knowing when to give them, doing your best at whatever you do, being a friend to someone regardless of how they may treat you or how selfish they may act at times, living life to the fullest, and most importantly, wearing your heart on your sleeve.

I have been in the best relationship for ALMOST 3 Years!

He is the sweetest and most sincere boyfriend I could ask for.

He is too good to me and I don't deserve him.

He accepts my faults and weaknesses and supports me

even when he knows that I am wrong. THAT is a best friend!

A best friend will stand beside you through anything and

will be there for you no matter what. Sometimes I wonder

if any of the people that I associated myself with in high school

would have my back no matter what. I know that you learn who

people truly are once you graduate and enter the real world.

People change like crazy! It doesn't matter how good you are to them, if they are not a true friend, they will talk about you as soon as you take your next breath. Sad, isn't it?

Do your best and be your best because that's what life is

all about in the end. People are going to remember you for that

door you open and wait on them with, the smile on your face, your positive attitude and even your last piece of gum you give away.

I'm not a college professor and I definitely do not have a degree in psychology. But I have been through high school and I have seen the difference that takes place in people. So don't do something just because it looks cool and it gets you the most friends or the most attention. What is right is

not always popular, and what is popular is not always right.

Cutesy Crafts

Okay, okay. I know it's been a while but I have had

so much to do between work and well, work. To be honest,

I haven't had time for much of anything else and I only

work at a cafe from 10 to 3.

Anyway, my mom and I started buying letters about 2 years ago

from Hobby Lobby and glueing scrapbook paper to them for

gifts and what-not. It is SO cute! You can use any pattern and

color the sides of the letter to match. Recently I have started

painting the letters along with "papering" them just to spice

it up a little. I have a few pictures of my latest crafty ideas and I

wanted to share them with you guys so if you have any interest

in them, you can email me and I can make anything you'd like!

Painted/scrapbook letters are $6 a piece or if there's 3 or more

(like a name) it's $4 a piece! I also paint crosses and picture frames!

If you have a new idea you'd like me to try, feel free to ask!!

It will take me around 2 days to get your

order back to you! The letters are not that expensive but

it does take me about an hour to paint a letter!

I'm a perfectionist!

Please email me or call me with your order! I'd love

to paint something for your child or you! :)

I am also in the process of finding the really big letters

that go outside on your porch/door. I'll let you guys

know as soon as I do find them! Thank you!!

Email me @: kaylakennamer@yahoo.com or

call me @: 256-647-8413

Painted Polka Dot "M" $6 (Any color available)

Painted Cross $8 (Any color available)

Smaller "W" Polka Dot $5

(Any letter and color(s) available)

Zebra "R" Letter $6

Painted Letter $6 (Any color available)

Painted "K" Zebra Letter $6

Painted "C" Striped Letter $6 (Any color available)

Painted "L" Letter $6 (Any color available)

Painted Polka Dot Letter $6 (Any color available)

Zebra Picture Frame $15 (Any pattern available upon request)

Scrapbook Letter $6 (Any pattern or letter available)

Painted Letter $6 (Any color available!)

Large Painted Canvas $12 (Any colors available!)

Painted "RTR" $12 (Any colors available!)

Time

It’s time.
It’s time to grow up and accept responsibility for your actions.

For many teenagers, this statement is hard to handle.
It’s time to clear the drama.
Time to leave some behind that weren’t really there for you to begin with..
But most importantly, time to have fun!

For me, it hasn’t been the easiest thing in the world to accept responsibility and accept growing up, but in all honesty, I do want to be recognized as a woman. I’ve had tons of fun as a teenager and being in high school/college has been the best experience a kid could ask for. But that’s just it. A KID could ask for.

While we’re being honest, I’m almost 100% sure that I will be the first one out of my group of friends to get married. And the first to graduate college and get a job. Thank God for dual enrollment. I want to get married early. I want it to just be me and Tysce for a while and then I want to be around 24 or 25 when I start having kids.

You may say that I just have everything all planned out.. And I kinda sort of do.

One People

To be honest, I never thought I would be writing this blog. Had you told me last Tuesday while I was sitting in the Veranda with 6 other lovely ladies that we were going to have a wide spread of devastation from 178 tornadoes across our beloved south, I would not have believed you.

As soon Thursday rolled around and we got word of all of the devastation close to our area, my heart was heavy for all the people across the southern states, especially in Sweet Home Alabama. I never knew then that it was as bad as it was until Sunday. Until Sunday, I just kept feeling like I wanted to get out of the house and help. Just help. Anyone.
Finally after 4 days in the house without power, we went to church. I was blessed to go to Higdon, Alabama Sunday afternoon to Higdon Baptist Church. We took them around 75 plates of food from Section Church of God. When we arrived in Higdon, there were a ton of trees down on the main road. I only thought this was it. I hopped in the back of one of two trucks that were going down a back road to deliver the plates of food we brought and packs of water.

I have never in my life seen such tragedy. I can’t even describe to you in words what we saw. There were no trees down on houses and no cars crumbled. Hardly any building was left standing at all. There was nothing. Only foundation where their houses stood and people searching the rubble for anything they could salvage.

This was the saddest thing I have ever seen in my life. I just can’t make anyone comprehend how bad it was that were not there.

We pulled up to about the twentieth house we had served food at. It was a long drive way that led to what was a house. As I got out of the back of the truck, I saw about 40 people standing on the rubble of what was a two story house before a tornado tore it apart. I didn’t take a picture of it because I didn’t want to offend the family. I gave a little girl a bottle of juice and her mother was standing with her. I asked if this was their house and she said it was not and that the family of 9 that lived there had all survived. They got under their staircase and the staircase fell on top of them, sheltering them from the violent twister.


I couldn’t help but be humbled at the site of it. They had around two truckloads of their belongings that they had recovered and for that, I could tell they were grateful.
It suddenly just hit me.

I have never been to Higdon, Alabama before in my entire life. I barely knew where it was.
Yet here I was, walking up someone’s driveway that I never probably would have walked on, to what used to be someone’s house that I never would have seen.
I didn’t even know these people. But that didn’t matter at all. This week, Alabamians have helped Alabamians. Neighbors have helped neighbors, but most importantly, strangers have helped strangers. They all continue to help everyone clean up and stay strong. I am just in awe of everything that I had to witness in Higdon and if it is worse than that anywhere, I don’t think that I want to see it.

The pictures do not even do it justice.

This is what God had planned for me. I felt that He called me to go out there and He called me to feed His people in need. I felt it when I sat in church Sunday morning. I still feel it right now. I feel so terrible for the people of Tuscaloosa, Sand Mountain, Cullman, and the Phil Campbell area. The storms were so widespread that it’s just incomprehensible. I am so thankful that everyone that I know were spared and unharmed and I pray for those in need and those who lost loved ones.

I encourage you to go out to your community and serve food to someone you don’t know. If you’re too shy or uncomfortable, take a friend with you! Our people need our help and it’s up to us to do it. God is calling us. It’s our wake up call.